The year is ending..

It's the last day of 2008. Lots of thoughts are flashing through my mind today. It's 11pm. I remembered how I spent the last day of 2007. I remembered who I have spent it with. Not the precious boy, sad to say. He chose to spend it with his friends. This year, it was my fault that we couldn't spend new year's eve tgt.

I seemed to feel alittle distant from home. I guess when I am back I need some time to get used. Been overseas, and only back to Singapore to spend Christmas. It wasn't a good one either. My tears are all dried up. Little angel left us. I couldn't forget the gruesome sight of how she left. But the fact is really hard for me to accept. She had left.

Year 2008 supposed to be a good year. But, I couldn't believe as it was a hurdle that is hard to cross over, one after another. I lost 2 'brothers' from evco and little angel in year 2008. It was really a good time for some reflections for the year. What have been done, what are not supposed to be done. In anyway, what's done cannot be undone.

It's the year of my major exam. To be distant from friends that you can't contact due to the exams. Or rather, they alrd had their own life and left u aside. To feel disappointed and to disappoint people. It's a time for a change. I am no longer like a small kid. Things have to change. Things have to be learnt.

I always wanted to escape from reality so much. I didn't really want to go home. I miss ANGEL. But still, I have Rascal to take care of. I have to go back. I can't escape from reality anymore. Though there are still planned trips for the year of 2009 before the school term starts, but I know Rascal needs me. He needs the whole family. It was so wrong to leave him alone in the house with the maid. Yeah, I didn't mention. I am now in Taiwan. I am only in Singapore for a couple of days. And Angel girl left. Now I am in Taiwan only returning this sunday morning. I don't feel like going home. I wished to go out in the night and return only in the morning. >.<>