My 4 years in my sec school is coming to an end in a few months time. To see the change of circle of friends. From classmates, to non-classmates. From school to orchestra. And back to the same old clique.
Due to busy schedule of my BIG O's! I am always only facing books, classmates, schoolmates, and boyfriend(hardly).
With the change of cliques, I still felt that the best are still my cliques of friends in school. Having to understand me the best, being tolerant towards me. And yet, I even have the cheek to place the rest before them. Ohhh NOOO! I'm sorry dearies.
Things have changed through time. Time made you see a clear picture at the end of the day. Who was good, who was not. Whom supposed to be trusted, and whom not supposed.
With different people coming in and out of my life, of course, I cherish every moment with them. I treat my friends like treasure. But, if in turn, I was treated like shit. Off you go! I don't need such a friendship.
Relationships mattered to me, I understand that being straightforward turns people off. Everything is all about give and take, compromising. And there, only my classmates who knew me well, understands what kind of person I am.
Perhaps, Nita was right. Some things are left to be unsaid. The aggressiveness in the way I do things, and I speak. I shan't deny that.
As time goes by, I understood myself better. I knew what kind of life that I am going for. Being myself was a key thing. I don't see the point to be nice to someone whom I don't like. Well. That's being hypocrite. Being with the cliques in school, I never fail to laugh till my heart content. But, in some cliques, things are just so different. To watch what you say, to watch your own actions, made me hard to breathe. If you understand me well enough, I don't see the point that I've to do these.
Life needs true friends, but not those who would smile at you in your eyes, but yet talking bad behind your back. For me, I don't need so many friends, just a few true ones. I am more than happy.
Whatever it is, it's just a random post, as well as, a way of being appreciative to the ones in school. =) Love you guys! MuackS!
Sunday, August 24
