Why did I tear b'cuz of you time after time?
I am afraid of the future.
But, you just doesn't care the way i feel.
He always said that he was busy due to exams.
And after exams, everything will go fine.
But, the fears refused to stop gripping my heart.
Time and again, something will crop up.
Just like after his O's, he said everything will be fine.
But, it turned out the opposite way.
Things became shaky, he wouldn't put effort into the relationship again.
And sth happened in feb eventually.
This year, after the patch-up, he was facing with tests.
He said sorry, after exam jiu steady lohs,
which means things will be back to norm.
But, he ended up ignoring my calls.
Making me worry, and said he had no feelings for anyone.
He was just trying hard to make things go through, and bear with it.
And now another round of exams are here for him again.
Is history gonna repeat?
I just couldn't stop thinking.
If i could control my feelings,
I wouldn't have dropped the tears.
I wouldn't have been bothered about you.
Why why why?
A million of WHYs i asked myself.
Do I deserve these? What have I done him wrong?
And was the tears worth it?
Whenever I speaks about anything wrong,
he just wants to avoid everything.
And at the end of it, it was my fault.
It was my fault for giving him stress.
"And who the hell was ZOEY!"
Tuesday, July 22
