Just got home.
Yeah, seriously today sucks big day!
It's killing me.
Supposed to meet him.
Well, that's our usual meeting day.
Friday!
But, never mind.
Someone got his date with his friends alrd.
Fine with it.
So I went out.
His habits came back.
His slow replies. Or rather. NO replies.
I started calling & calling when his replies seemed to be stuck at the message centre.
And he got tired of it.
I mean, well. Of cuz everyone will.
He's pissed off. Im pissed off.
The whole world is pissed off!
Seriously, im curious.
We have not meet up for long.
And yet he chose to go out with his friends instead.
Im fine abt it alrd.
But, since he's idling with his frens..
Why cant he just reply my text?
He said he was tired in a relationship.
Having to be responsible that he has to at least speak to me and all everyday.
He is tired.
Well, that only proves me sth.
He doesn't love me.
And when i said that, he said that he's tired. He duno what he's talking.
You said you would never break my heart.
But, you broke it unknowingly.
Can't you feel for me?
You said that you will be back when your tests are over.
It doesn't seems so.
It seems that im a bothersome of yours.
Im just bothering you. =(
Went back amk.
Saw him with his friends.
This juncture.. I could only feel sth was wrong.
Tears nearly went down. But, i held back the tears.
I saw the smile imprinted on his face with his frens.
He saw me, but he din say hi or sth.
He's really getting tired of me?
It seems to, i don't know.
I don't dare to ask for an answer or anything.
When i knew his smile with his friends, i could only conclude one thing.
I failed my duty as his gf.
I FAILED. FAILED BADLY!
Went home.
I held my tears no more.
As soon as i stepped into my room,
the tears did not stop flowing.
As tears flow, my heart felt so broken, my head can't stop spinning.
I just feel that the world seems crashing down on me.
Im sorry.I failed to make you happy and be the best gf you could have.
Friday, June 6
I used to have YOU as my emotional support whenever i faced with such probs with him.
But you're gone. No more.
I don't dare to mention anything to you anymore.
I don't even dare to speak to you.
I disappoint you badly.
Like what you say, i chose this route myself.
Things could never gonna be the same again.
You aren't gonna be there for me again.
