My emotional support is gone.
Im not being not UNDERSTANDING.
I think for the past few weeks,
I have been very tolerant and stuff.
But, you took it for granted and you feel like replying my text den reply.
Placing me in the mode of waiting.
Yes, I admit that im jealous.
It's not being petty anyway.
I hopes you just don't bother.
But, no.
You're still updating yourself with everything.
Having a status of single, not featuring your girl on friendster.
It only tells her something.
She doesnt feel that she is wanted. And..
She thinks that you placed as single to allow other girls to be close to you.
And, YOU think that it doesn't affect her.
It's ok and stuff. NO!
Writing comments for the whole world except her.
How would she feel??
That only cause ill feelings within her.
A girl needs security.
But some guys just can't give the security && assurrance.
Fearing that the same thing happen if he doesn't reply my text.
Well, that happens that time.
You are always full of excuses for the delay of my text.
Im living my days with fears daily.
I feel so dead.
I wish that my world just stop evolving.
Stop where it is, and let it be.
Hang me there in the air till my breath stops.
Im moodless to do anything && talk to anyone.
I used to go to Mr Ong whenever i have probs.
But now.. I don't want anymore.
Im not gonna tell him any stuffs anymore.
Im not gonna turn to him anymore.
I don't want to live my life with full of suspense.
Fate is destined. I shall leave everything for the universal to decide for me.
If it's meant for me to feel this way, den let it be.
If it's meant that I would do badly for my O's, let it be.
If it's meant for me to see how happy couples could be, but im struggling with mine, let it be.
If it's meant that i would lose these friends, let it be.
Everything happens for a reason.
But I can't figure out what's my reason for living.
I can't figure out why is my life banging with so many obstacles.
I thought that i've found my happy soul back.
But no, it's still wondering out there.
I hope that you can catch it back for me,
Cuz i knew it's all in your hands.
Im seriously tired.
Some people would just smirk when they see this post.
Well, being emo.. Everyone will, at some point of their life.
Laugh all you want, smirk all you want.
Cuz I will still be me.
I feel the way i feel, I do what i wna do. That's all.
Enough! Nights people.
Sorry for the emo post, my loyal readers.
I dun really feel well. So yupps. Pardon me!
Wednesday, May 21
