Hahas. Chinese intensive was cut by 2 periods.
Den we went on to attend a talk by Dr William Tan.
He is physically handicapped.
But, he's a brain scientist && medical doctor.
A world record holder.
An international motivational speaker.
I dunno why.. I find this kinda talk interesting.
He played us his life video.
The bitterness of life to the success of life.
With his video, he had this song attached to it.
Don't Give Up - Josh Groban.
Yahhs. I shall blog abt that later.
Den had recess.
After which went to physics lab.
Din really have physics lesson.
Ong mentioned abt our results agn. =(
He mentioned those who were supposed to go for panel and stuff.
Yeah, im on danger list.
You can view by my last post.
But, i overcame everythin. No panel. No principal.
Only meet parents, which applies to all.
But mummy is going away! Hahas.
Ask papa go lohs! >.<
Think he will be shocked by my results la!
HAhahas.
Den had chem test.
How shits of it!
I dunno a single thing la!
Which shit spread that test is during the hols!!
Okkays never mind. Then went home after that.
I don't know if it's the weather or it's my mental well-being.
My bad headache struck me again.
Showered when home. Den go sleep.
My head feels so numb after sleeping for a couple of hours.
How sick. And same, no texts.
I think i had enough.
And i had done my best as your gf.
But, pls reflect. Are you putting effort into this relationship?
My ans for you is NO.
Where were you when i needed you most?
Im feeling down but yet i could not turn to anyone except you.
But YOU are so near yet I cant reach for you.
Cuz you doesn't stretch your hand out for me to hold on.
Im feeling very insecure.
But you just can't be bothered.
Sometimes, I ask myself.
What do I actually want?
The ans is Happiness, to be with you.
But, you disappointed && hurt me times and again.
Am I deserved to feel this way?
And you can't feel the pain that im feeling.
Cuz the only reason is "where is your heart?"
Do you REALLY care & REALLY love me?
I beg differ abt it. Unless you could prove me wrong.
Which i think you wouldn't.
This is a point where i tell myself.
"Im done trying"
"It's all in your hands."
Why can't you just reply a minute of my text?
I just need you to be there for me.
But I saw you, yet you're unreachable.
Wednesday, May 21
