i wanted to blog abt it,
but i cant type it all out.
my mind is total blank.
i just know that i love you too much,
i could always only tear silently behind ur back.
no matter wad, i just yearned for ur happiness.
i can make all sacrifices, but all i hoped was ur happiness.
Your happiness determines everything.
I dun yearn much from u,
just alittle more care and concern from you is sufficient.
a word of concern from you would just brighten my day up.
But, now ur sms were replied slow.
as if it was based on ur mood.
i asked for ur reply, but u asked me to give u ur own time.
u said before that you would make me happy.
but i cant feel that u r even trying.
no matter how terrible i felt, i just keep it to myself.
no matter how much i hav done, i always tell myself that i couldnt let u go.
cuz u r always the dearest to me.
no matter wad happens, u are still placed in the top place of my heart.
u flare up, u felt moody and everything,
i just took it in.
cuz i hoped that it will make u feel much btr and happier.
i just hoped u would just care alittle more for me.
you knew how much i cared for this relationship,
but u seemed not to care at all.
crying till eyes swell is good? crying out will make me feel better?
these are bullshytes! cuz crying out will only make me feel even terrible.
why must i cry over little thing cuz of a guy?
why must i cry so terribly, when he dun even know?
i told myself that i would not tear for any guy.
but, i could only tell everyone.
I m no longer strong.
I m lidat, becuz i loved him too much.
It makes me feel that the tears are worth.
Now he dun even care.
Someone sees this post would be very happy.
But i m telling this person!
Dun be too happy, cuz i will nvr let him go!
Sunday, November 18
