hmmm. i din blog ytd cuz...
nicholas and dear ton at my hse.
we chiong movies.
should say 'they' instead of 'we' lars.
hahas. cuz i watched halfway jiu ZZzzZZz lers.
hahas. den slept all da way lohs.
morning they woke up, wash up jiu go cut hair lers.
den they came back, i cooked fer them lunch.
after they ate, stayed awhile jiu go off lers.
I M STUCKED AT HOME FOR 2 WHOLE DAYS AGAIN!!!!
surprising eh? hahas. haiiz. almost bored to death!
at home nth to do de lars!
haiiz. i dunno hw to tell him.
but i felt so wrong now.
he seemed that he cared but i dun feel tt he is caring enough for me.
i hav been trying to cherish this relationship.
it went through lotsa ups and downs.
i really love him alot.
all i wanted is nvr leave him.
i'm sry that i flared up this afternoon lars.
but i juz wna care for u, u just simply dun care.
i did so much for u, but is this the kinda attitude that i should receive from u?
i sent the sms. but u din reply.
i asked y? and u said, action speaks.
alright, so i noticed ur actions.
it did not change. u r making me more n more confused.
i dunno when is the true you?
ur smses are sweet. but sometym i just nid some care from u.
i rely my happiness on u. but i dun even feel that u r trying.
i felt like asking, what's in ur mind.
but i dare not, i was afraid that u flared up.
i dowan u to b unhappy.
all i wanted is u to be happy.
i feel that i m super loner nw.
i dun wish to socialise wif anyone.
i dun wish to do anythin.
all in my mind was how am i gonna do to put the real smile back on ur face always.
i dowan to c ur smile on and off awhile.
i dun wish to feel unhappy at all.
but u did not even care abt how i felt.
i m not angry, but i m just sad and confused.
i just wna be by ur side always, no matter wad.
i hope u do so as well. =((
Friday, November 23
